At times our lives get so hectic and the stress starts to build and soon enough we find ourselves screaming for peace.
The past few days have been like that for me. Having just arrived in Xining, the city that will be my home base for the next few months, I am just dipping my fingertip into understanding the life that I will live for the next three months(Yeah, just a measly three months, I know. But enough time to really make some changes which will I hope affect the rest of my life.). Everything is complicated and hard to understand.
The clouds of confusion are building overhead and the storms of chaotic mind loss are ready to break.
I am typically not the type to get all stressed out. There are a few parts of my life that are exceptions to this rule but in general I know where I am going, the path is clear and I could care less about a lot of things that perhaps I should care more about.
The thunderheads of schizophrenia are flashing with brilliant electric light.
But currently there are a few things I am working thru right now that are teaching me the art of dealing with mental challenges. Moving to a new city is hard enough. Moving to a new city in another country is even worse. Moving to a new city in another country where you don’t even know how to ask where the bathroom is is worst of all.
The tornadoes of loss of all frame of reference are touching down all about me.
My mind has been all day today bombarded with thoughts of things I need to do. Learn the language. NOW! Meet the director of the english school. NOW! Figure out where things are in your city. NOW! Read your Bible. NOW! Find a good map of the region. NOW! Update your blog. NOW! Get alone to pray. NOW! Lay out the schedule for the next few months. NOW! Study on some doctrinal issues. NOW! Call your family and tell them you are alive. NOW! The air I breath could literally be called confusion. There is only one place to turn.
The hurricane of death looms before me.
Cracked open my Bible to read a little while ago. Read a few chapters ending with Romans chapter 8. I was blessed so much by that chapter. The security it gives for those who are following our King is beyond my ability to understand. To put it in another way; God has your back if you are living for Him. And he won’t let you down. Not here or in eternity. We must never lose sight of how great our salvation is. That our holy God has stooped down to call, regenerate and justify men who were in rebellion to Him is the heartbeat of the gospel. This is not something we learn once and then proceed on to the next level. This is your life. This is who you are and more importantly who your God is. This is every lesson from here till you die and then on into eternity. May it ever propel us on to deeper devotion to our King.
The Son of righteousness shines thru dispelling all clouds and darkness.
All for the King!!!