As I was getting back from three months spent mostly cut off from good Christian fellowship (at least at the level I had formerly experienced it) I was looking forward to getting back in the company of fellow believers consistently. Though walking the Christian life alone can help you to grow in some ways greatly it also throws you off balance in other ways.
Throughout this time alone there were may times that my thoughts turned to the important things of deep communion with other believers. It is rare that we experience it with someone. Even rarer that that time extends beyond a one-time conversation.
There is this longing for unity with other Christians that lies at the heart of every believer. We deeply desire for a deeper communion than we have. But why then are we not seeking it? Why is not seen everywhere? If we were to look at the way we behave rather than the way we actually are one might come to different conclusions.
I think the answer to our unwillingness to seek depth in Christian unity is our fear of others really knowing who we are. We are too proud to let them in because they will see all of our faults. Instead of striving for transparency we make sure the curtains are drawn about our struggles and weaknesses. This sort of attitude is damaging to our own health as believers but not only that it flies in the face of the scriptural picture of confession. “Confess your sins one to another” the Bible teaches.
I do not claim to be living here what I believe is right. It is a goal that I am seeking but admittedly have not reached. To be among a group of believers that are open about who they truly are and to be truly open myself is something I deeply desire but have not always found. Many times I have tasted it and I am thankful for that.
The question I am always asking myself is, “What have I to hide? It’s not like they do not know I am a human dwelling in a body with all of its temptations. Whatever you are open about is only going to drive you into a deeper unity with your friends as transparency and honesty are highly valued.”
But there are these desires within me to keep putting my best foot forward. To keep on pretending that I am perfect and not to be open about my struggles. I pray that thru the grace of the King these sinful desires are eradicated from within me and I am able to enter into a life of consistent openness about who I really am.
Oh to be consistently on the outside as I am on the inside!!! For the reality of Christ to so sink into who I am that there would be no selfish call to hide things from my brothers!!! Oh for real unity!
This is my heart-cry.
I pray the same for you.